Why Not

i wrote this out so we could have the words:

it's all beautiful

and it's even better

and i'm here

i'm more here than i've ever been

and i'm so gone

and i don't act like this usually

and you're a good friend

but i'll throw my fist

all i know is that i feel

and i felt

and i can't touch stars

therapy of fingers

i am disillusioned

but 

i've been wrong before

and i'm no victim

but i do want outs

and that's ok

get close but this is not the ends

depressants get far

i'm thinking about stadium swim

please believe i'm giving it 100% 

honestly

i was a running back

i just want to at least explain

ill grow older

so let me go on the Ferris wheel real quick

i'm done with the excuse that we can go on

instead of just getting together $600

i'm so sick of it

and i don't get sick

i just don't really get it

i've been bought out by another company

see how many times i talk about myself

it's natural

i can only imagine what you're going through

and i want to sit in it with you

i'm going to be at the park with it

and i'll sleep with it

and 

it will drive me insane

and four years of yours will go by

and nothing goes by

there's a word

you

there's a word

who is feeling that

i want hands in the air like its laurel canyon

fuck if it ends up being a cultural difference

i can't sit with that 

and that is why

i will fight for my own eyes

my brother swings with white pupils

fuck him he's getting gouged and lock jawed

if it's a cultural difference say it

but i'm just here to enjoy myself

floors wet

more matches, please

floors wet, please

please let us have a ball, please

that's all i can plead for

and i should wrap this up because 

sin city is here

but i just wanted to talk a little

and 

Why Not

because 

it takes nothing out of my day

and i just don't want to take out your day

and that's why the gauge is always there

like i'm 12 and kissing her

i love to kiss her

so please just let me kiss her(?)

id rather be alone because i'm a rose petal

and i don't mind

it's a lot of time without sleep

or food

you're just striving for beauty

drink water so the vessels don't pop

they'll look no matter how much rum

i went to the library

caught up with you

realized

it makes sense 

they know not what we do

we take up technology and ideology

spread it like peanut butter

i just think its better if i'm alone to eat the sandwich

i'm on a raft in a casino

venice but i'm crying for you 

because you couldn't help but get your ass

in a seat for my numbers

i'm so worried about what i can't help but do

because even if i didn't want it 

you want it to be one way

but its the other way

i can't help it

i was boxing the bleedin' head off him

did i just hear the last of it

last time i saw those eyes i saw it fall down

there was only praise

and that's my delusion speaking

i guess i just want to impress myself