Big Homies

When I become like Afghanistan

The colors still mix just right for the perfect consumer 


Sometimes we play the nail and sometimes we play the hammer

Sometimes we spit up

While looking at God 


But when you feel the blows then things start to turn

Not a conscious formation to a pre-cortex with hypoxia 

Do I turn, for you? Or for who? Or for something else? Who has the script? The play is in the headset, ugly 


Let’s begin with one statement that I want to be known:

There’s a drunk who pushes all the bloody buttons I want to push 

He’s going to lose his job, however, and soon


And if I told you that I’ve met him, you’d say I’m a liar 

Because my reality has become just that 

When I was young and dreamed and thought about the ghosts


So now sitting in a bomb shelter 

With everyone telling me to keep the pressure up 

Those who want to fuck me

Those who fuck me 

Those who fuck me over

Those who fuck me while fucking me over 

Those who fuck 


Miscreyentes who I’m used to now 

Just like you have have hardened to them 


A part of the cover story becomes the whole act of reinventing 

Cowards hide from things they fear so 

Finding something beyond that 

Moving on now for the sake of it

Passing it along to something new 

Or brand new 

Cowards is a word that unravels some, badly, almost to a childlike state 


When I talk to the old man with all the wisdom but with none of the money or fame 

He always ends up picking up his lukewarm drink and telling me 

Always like infinitely - because I have no capability to measure my words


You’ll never lose if you don’t try to win 


So I don’t believe the old fuck

I just sort of look at the poor, old fuck 

Hoping the day moves on 

And that’s only one part of it 


Weapons 

A fun tale

Someone to nod their head approvingly 

Move across the world with just that, and tell me you’re not number one 


Hey, the void 

Thank you for being here to remind us 

Just at this moment 

At this very, precise, moment 

That this whole tree grows on electricity 

That the power, from this, is from the same place and nothing can be said to diminish the finality of it all 

How none of this will be here after cocktail hour 


Unless committed


To a place where you have to check in your credentials 

And they serve only garlic bread and cigarettes

Along with your information and a government stooge

 

Or to the memory hole of some passenger in our life 

Who just took a piece and then took it and never thought about it again

Not even in passing, not even fleetingly 

Not even once did they think about that one thing you/me/someone did 

That whole event 


A ghost let’s themselves be seen

Perhaps the drugs that they filled us with in the school lunches - or the medicines mom and dad believed in - made us lose this sight 

With glimpses and shadows 

Just shoulders and elbows 

Of the other jumps into ponds of electromagnetism we can still jump into 

With just more budget or oversight from the c-suite, perhaps 

Without having to take off more than we ever had to

Because modest is hottest